Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Manic Times.

These last few days have been such a cluster fuck.

I'm still in Orange County. I'm currently typing this from my nephews bed in my sisters house. The room is decorated in stuffed animals, legos, game boy games, books we read when we were younger, and raiders stuff (his dad is a huge raiders fan). He's a lucky kid. My sister and his dad are taking care of him. He's not growing up like my sister and I did. I'm really glad that's the case. Innocence is a good thing to hold on to these days, it's the only thing you have. Once that's gone, you're as good as dead. When I look back at my life I tell my self I wouldn't have wanted to grow up any other way, but that's not true. I know it's not true. It's nothing personal against my mom or dad, I love them. But it could have been better. What's a childhood with out terrible memories though, right?

Regardless; I'm happy for this family. Love mine. But they'll be the death of me. That's why I'm in Santa Cruz and they're here.

There's really no point to this entree. I started to finally read "On The Road" by Kerouac. After my long hiatus on reading, I decided to start again but this time with "the greatest hits" of literature. I'm tired of reading about civilization, our cultures mistreatment of women, patriarchy, animal suffering, etc. Etc. I don't need to read that stuff anymore. I know how I feel about it. I don't need to read about it.

I'm currently listening to Morrissey: Years of Refusal.
Best record of 09. This man can not do a terrible record. Everything he's done, amazing. Hopefully I get to see him next month in Oakland. My life is really in need of that experience again.

Playlist since the last couple of days.

Swans - Burning World.
Morrissey - Years of Refusal.
Jets To Brazil - Perfecting Loneliness.
Depeche Mode - Sounds Of The Universe.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Wolves Like Me.

I haven't written in this in a long time. To all 2 of you that ever read this or were interested. There's no real reason. I've been busy trying not to be (but always thinking about it) a narcissistic-self centered-person driven to write in this thing by being in a perpetual state of discomfort, depression, or nostalgia. A short story of where I left off.

December through January were hard months, really no need to go into too much detail.
In February I moved to Santa Cruz and that's where I've been spending most of my time. Jobless. Nearly homeless. But still, better than I was in Orange County. Something about being away from home. I feel like everytime I step foot into Orange County it takes everything I have to leave again. There's always something trying to keep me t(here), (I'm writing this on a short stint down here for a show 7 gen has on Thursday). Like me and Ben being stranded on the side of the 5 in the middle of no where from 12 midnight till 4 A.M. My car just didn't want to leave, that or the water pump was broken and we had been leaking from the beginning. Regardless, I would have jumped in front of a semi if it wasn't for Ben being there.

Now Santa Cruz: a life of vacation. Living off my savings, sneaking into places, not buying things, collecting music, transportation by foot or bike 98% of the time, eating too much (I can tell I've gained weight, I need to fix that), and last but not least, playing music. Only reasons I have for coming down to south orange county are to play shows with 7 Gen and nothing else; we are ending it soon (this year) so to all 10 of you that care(d) I'm sure the details for the last show will be released fairly soon. I don't know who's going to be on it. We will be releasing a 2 song 7inch with our last songs on it. Recording for that will be...? No clue. I'm sure that info will be released soon as well.

As for now everything is tentative. I'd say other things about our plans to do other things but it's such a cluster fuck with everyone changing plans that I'm not even going to bother.

However I will tell you my plans: I'm staying up in Santa Cruz as long as it will have me. Hopefully things work out so I can live there.
Musically: I have started a band called "speedway", it's a punk rock n roll band. I'm enjoying it so far. Maybe we'll have something recorded soon. This July through september I will be touring Europe with my friends band Wait In Vain. We will be there for 2 and a half months playing a bunch of shows. Playing a bunch of fests and having a great time I hope. I'm excited for it. I always find my self happy when I'm away from home. See? Always leaving. I was born that way.

There's really nothing else to write. Other than I feel morbidly obese and I don't think I can recover. Someone needs to help me get on a better diet.

Things I've been listening to the past 3 months and highly recommend:
Psychic T.V. - Force The Hand of Chance.
Swans - Burning World, Various Failures, shit, all Swans is good.
Angels Of Light (ex swans) - Everything as well. Michael Gira is fantastic.
Death In June - DISCriminate collections.
Christian Death - Six, Six, Sixth communion.
The Black Angels - Passover.
Jefferson Airplane - The Worst of Jefferson Airplane.
Left For Dead - Splitting Heads.
Threadbare - Feeling Older Faster.
Chorus Of Disapproval - The Italian 7inch.
The Swarm - Parasitic Skies, Split with Forced Fed Glass.
Minus The Bear - Highly Refined Pirates.
City & Colour - Bring Me Your Love.
Backstabbers Inc. - Kamakazi Missions.
Band Of Horses - Tour EP.
Cocteau Twins - Heaven Or Las Vegas.
Dinosaur Jr. - Where You Been?
Electric Wizard - We Live.
Integrity - Humanity Is The Devil, Systems Overload, Seasons In The Size Of Days.
Isis - Waving Radiant.
The Jesus And Mary Chain - Darklands.
Jose Gonzalez - Veneer, In Our Nature.
Kings Of Leon - Only By The Night.
Oasis - What's The Story Morning Glory?
Propagandhi - Supporting Caste.

Last but certainly not least.
Morrissey - Years Of Refusal. Atleast a 30 times since it leaked. Yes I bought it on vinyl and CD.