the good times will kill you.

the weather today is something i should truly be happy about. its overcast and cloudy as hell. i need to stop listening to mirah, she's just too good. i woke up really tired today with no clue where i was...after a few seconds of getting my head straight i realized i was in my bed, at home. were all going to hell.

Nil.

today is the day you realize that you have become something you've always hated. someone who just spends his whole time working, forgetting to live, forgetting to see, touch, feel, or hear. i've not had a day like this since my junior year in highschool. pieces of plastic have never made me so excited...60 dollars later and my path to record buying has been uncovered. im still waiting for that day when money is no longer an issue and i can buy all the records i've ever dreamed of. eternal bliss.

one more song. one more month, i'm giving myself one more month.

ive come to the conclusion that i hate myself. i truly do. i need to learn how to actually control myself. what am i talking about? why am i talking about it on here?

unfortunately,
i am back.