Advocates Anonymous

I suppose now's a good a time as ever to update this.

I have been hooked on watching Sex And The City, my lovely friend Tia introduced me to the series and it's taken a hold of my life. The only thing that I've really learned so far is that relationships aren't possible, at all. It's always fun to try and beat that game though.
I've been working a lot...trying to figure out what I'm doing with my self but anytime my mind goes in that direction I end at the vision of a tombstone; I'm just trying to figure out what I'm going to do from now until then.
I've acquired some new gear due to my working a lot, downside is I still don't have a room to put all my stuff in. The only thing this artist is starving for is a bedroom.
I've recently went off my medication in hope of making COG's new lyrics a little more...potent? One of the dumbest ideas I might have ever had but I tried and failed. I'm feeling the effects of it right now. So much so that I don't want to write anymore. Irritability...it's a motherfucker.

force the hand of chance

It's been a while since I've written on this thing. It seems like a lot has happened since the last time I've been on this thing; somethings not worth mentioning, others shouldn't be mentioned. I'm in my room (not mine or even a room) listening to the kids outside yelling, screaming, full of life. I remember when I was like that and at random times I feel that way. I always wondered where the hell that part of me went, trite or not...I feel old.

Two weeks ago a friend of mine, Brian Fyfe passed away by a self inflicted gun shot to the head. Brian and I were never really close, but I have known him since I was young and going to shows. He had recently started coming to the shop to hang out more often and he always had a way of making people around him feel good. That's what I remember Brian as, he is and will always be one of the top 3 funniest people I have ever met. I got the news in the morning when I was out and about and when I found out I had to sit down. I couldn't believe it. He shot him self while drunk, playing with a shotgun, in front of a couple of our friends. It's such a tragedy that he had to go out like that and I think that's what really hit home. One minute playing with a gun the second gone from this world. I haven't felt that affected by death in a long time. I think about him sometimes and it hits me that he's never coming back into the shop to talk shit with us and it just weirds me out. He will be missed.

In other not such downer news, the new band has been writing like crazy. We just wrote an EP and are now 2 songs into writing a full length...we still have not toured yet and I don't really plan on doing so until we have something other than our demo out. This next release will blow our demo out of the water. Not even comparable at all.

I think that's all for now. Let me try to get into the routine of writing in this more often, don't hold your breath.