Burdened Bird.

I'm taking some time off of my lazy day to write about my recent purchase(ses).

Camera: Canon 20D. I've used them before, they are awesome cameras that allow me to remember the past and alter it with photoshop. I've taken a good amount of picture already, some that I will post here...but not yet. Fuck that Nikon shit.

Jacket: Pleather/Hoodie jacket from Obey. 93 dollars...was it worth it? Probably not, but I've been wanting one for a while so I might as well treat my self.

I've been spending money like it's going out of style. Not a bad idea for a 21 year old homeless kid that isn't working his social security and will more than likely die within the next 5 years (god willing). I've been writing a lot, spending a lot, hating a lot more, and being a lot more irritable than usual. That's what skipping your meds does to you I suppose. Next week I fly to Texas to play with our good friends in Die Young. I've never been so excited to go to Texas. I have a new camera, a new jacket, I guess I'm ready to party. I fly back the next day to see Sunny Day Real Estate in LA. What a hectic month.

A lot of nothing has been said in this post, it seems to be the re-occurring theme of this blog.

Playlist:

Psychic T.V. - Themes
The Album Leaf - An Orchestrated Rise To Fall
Adamantium - From The Depths Of Depression
Eyelid - If It Kills
Dinosaur Jr. - Where You Been?

A ton of lead belly and Hopkins.

Fin.

No where is where we are.

I'm typing this as I sit at my moms house. It's been a crazy couple days. I've been completely reclusive and I'm here cause I want to get away from everybody. Unfortunately I gave up my room to my brother and his kid so that means when I'm here I have to sleep on the couch, luckily it's comfortable.

I was JUST reminded that my records have been put out in the shed, the shed that gets hit by the blistering southern california sun all summer. I'm having a panic attack thinking about my records being warped. God, I don't know what I'm going to do if that's the case. That's records I've been collecting since I was 13 all gone. I'd probably keep them for sentimental value, but there's nothing like putting on the old Excessive force 7inch or the suedehead single. Man, I'm moving them out tomorrow morning. I'm crossing my fingers, hoping for the best.

I've decided that I am buying a camera. Photography has always been a well kept secret-passion of mine. It's everybodies, I know, but I feel like I have the artistic vision for it. I won't treat it as anything more than a hobby. Monday I will meet up with someone from craigslist (thank god for this website) and purchase a canon 20d. I'm quite familiar with the camera and I feel confident enough to edit my photos with photoshop which I am learning how to use on my own (thank god for google/youtube).

I ran in a sweat suit tonight, you know those suits that look like trash bags? Yeah, one of those, when you take them off you have to drain the sweat/water out. It's gross, but goodbye to calories. I'm in love with the thought of losing weight.

Oh yeah, I stopped by my local record store, vinyl solution to see what they have going on and to no avail I spent 50 dollars on 2 smiths records, a from ashes rise seven inch and a sugar cubes promo press for a certain someone. I miss going there and spending my parents money on "Crucial" hardcore 7 inches. To be young again.

That's about all I got for the night.

Here's what I've been listening to.

Morrissey - Southpaw grammar, Maladjusted, Vauxhall And I, and Your Arsenal remastered versions. It's like hearing him for the first time all over again.

Pick these records up...they have some extra tracks, the latter 2 are DIY remasters...you can find them on mediafire.

Mastodon - Crack The Skye, amazing god damn record. I cannot get over it.

That's really all I've been listening to, sometimes I put on Swans "love will tear us apart" ep. Good cover, better than the original in my opinion.

Goodbye.

Lower than the streets.

I haven't written on here much. I've been...busy?

I work 3 days a week and write/listen to music any time I'm not at my job. If you read this and live in the area...come get pierced.

I've been hitting the gym (I know, I hate that word too...I hate that whole sentence, actually). I run 2 miles on the treadmill and do 2 miles on the elliptical machine...then on to 10 minutes on the stationary bike. Let's say my main focus is cardio and stamina. I've got it. I feel great and I'm trying (not really) to eat better (6+ cookies today).

I also joined the world of the googlephone. This thing is fantastic...I'm not going to go on about it too much, but let's just say it's t mobiles answer to the iphone. I've been hearing rumors that Tmobile will be buying out AT&T so...maybe an Iphone is in my future? Who knows. Who cares.

Children Of God will be heading into the studio next month (hopefully?). I've been putting a lot of effort into writing the music and lyrics for this project. If this actually gets done...I will feel VERY accomplished.

Last night I went to go see the Pains of being pure at heart.


Seriously, they're the best band I've seen all year...they're so tight live and they're just extremely catchy dreampop. I've got shoegaze songs written and it's been quite some time since I've tried to get something started with that...who knows...maybe I'll try again some day. Get their new ep "Higher than the stars"...amazing 4 songs.

Here's some records I've been listening to...




Gira...that's all I have to say.




One of the most influential albums of all time for me.









One of the most influential bands of all time for me as well...Blake is pure genius. I'm glad I got to see Thorns Of Life play live at least once. Unfortunately I've heard they departed already. Too bad.




Need I say more about this record?


That's all. This was all over the place...but who cares. Hopefully next time I post I'll have distortion recorded for your ears.

Love is a life of eternal pain.

I suppose an update is due at this time.

I've been home for 8 days and it hit me hard today. I've worked twice since being back and it's nice to have income...but it's definitely not life on the road.

So far I've eaten a good amount of burritos, cooked good food (bad for your health, but good for the fat kid in you). And practiced with the new project. We have one more song to finish and then it's into the studio for a demo. This will be the first time I'll be recording bass in the studio...it should be fun. I'm really excited for the outcome of this...I'm excited to see what this turns into. I've been writing these songs for a while and I think they have my full devotion.

I watched Godfather tonight for the first time (I know, I know)...and I must say even though it is a good movie, it was kind of disappointing. It dealt more with the politics of running a mafia family. I'm all for it...but for the most part, I feel well versed in that aspect of the mafioso lifestyle. I like movies with a lot of killing. I like movies that portray the gruesome aspect of that kind of life. Regardless Pacino does a great job in that movie (like he does in almost all of his movies). Brando was also fantastic, it was sad to see the slow death of his character, he did it so well.

That's all for now. Expect to hear distortion soon.

Playlist:
Jux Thoth - S/T
Another Victim - A Portrayal of Vengeance
Jesu - Infinity (40 minute song? Yes please)
Electric Wizard - We Live
Graves At Sea - /Asunder split
Godflesh - Messiah
Brand New - Devil And God/Daisy

Commanding views towards the inevitable.

Expect this one to be short.

After almost a year of contemplation and many more bottled up, I finally put my self out there. I made a page for some stuff I wrote. I've always been afraid of the harsh scrutiny of the internet and the critics that don't know how to be critics. Like I said, it was bound to happen...so with out any further a due here it is.

The song is about self sabotage. Losing a good thing (or a thing you think is "good"). Not much else to it.

I've been writing music since I was 12 (read: I've been writing suicide notes since I was 12). I've never been afraid to perform in front of people but I've always been nervous to try and sing to my music. I've recorded many songs and have damned many more to the pits of the apple "trash" icon. Something inside me told me to just put it out there. So...I did. I figured the world is riddled with plenty of other bullshit "artist" so why not add mine to the trash pile. I have more songs to record and many more words to put to music...but I don't expect this to flower into something more than just me recording my songs on a laptop and putting them on the world wide dread.

Good night and good luck.

P.S. New Brand New is amazing...anyone who says their "old stuff is better" is not worthy of having an opinion on music or let alone having a brain.

The places we go to die are never too far from home...

It's 7 AM California time. I'm back home after 2 months of zig zagging across the world. Last night we got in to LAX exactly on time. 13 hours of flying and watching lackluster movies (although, I'm a sucker for shitty movies) the day was finally over in one of the worst cities in America. I hate LA...but back to a "Recap".

Rome...I can't say anything that can some up my amazing experience in that beautiful city. Every day there was something to do, there was never a boring experience while we were in that place. We did all the touristy shit, Vatican, Coliseum, Sistine, Pizza, Pasta, etc. etc. From time to time Josh would take me places on the back of his scooter...I've never ridden on the back of one...being on the back of one in Rome was probably the best thing you can do if you wanted a natural high of almost dying at every street light, complete chaos, there are no dividing lines for cars; any space a car can fit into it was squeezed into.



One of the most surreal experiences I had while there was when I rode Joshes bike into town early in the morning. No cars, no tourists, no taxis, no bullshit. I rode the bike as fast as I could down the main road to get to the down town area, partially because it had been so long since I had done physical activity and because riding a bike as fast as you could is always fun. I rode down the cobble stone roads that took you into tiny little plazas and streets unscathed by tourists...and if they had been there, they weren't there because it was 2 am. I found my way to the Coliseum, that's where I sat down and couldn't believe I was in front of that building. It was insane to think that since elementary school we were taught about Rome and its history, and the Coliseum being one of the main focuses of our lessons, everything from Gladiators to Christians being fed to lions...I was right there in front of that very building where all that happened. How many people from my school have gone and done what I was doing? How many people got to ride a bike to the Roman Coliseum and got to just sit there and take it all in? Probably none. I sat there for a good hour thinking about it, watching couples sit together on the steps of this massive building or sitting on the lawn that was next to it. If there was a time in my life where I thought I was lucky, this was then. I got to travel Europe for two months, doing what I loved. Read: I got to spend time in Rome all because of this stupid music of mine. No one in my family has ever and will never do that. I was luck to be there, and a couple days later I'm still thinking the same thing. Cloud 9.







And now I'm home. Back to the monotonous every day life. I can't say I'm not happy to be home. Let's say if I had a band that toured 9 months out of the year, I would not be bummed.